in the end it's always and only me

I hate people. okay hate isn't the right word. just disappointed. again and again.

then okay wait a second. what about yourself? you're not so fucking perfect either. you show up but what do you give them? you don't know how to make them happy, how to say the right words when they need it. so maybe drop those expectations a notch and stop caring whether or not people are there for you. let it go to nothing and be pleasantly surprised once in a while instead of constantly being let down. just back away, do your own thing, and stop bean counting.