Inception

the type of design in this movie, creating environments of dreams with endless possibilities - and the girl who does it once then and can't go back to the designs of reality. this is me, this is school vs working world. yet i can't go back to school, and the only other forced choice is that of the real world. which to some people may not seem so bad - there's a lot of variety here. people find happiness in the everyday. but when you taste those alternate possibilities, you don't forget. you just long and forget your passions and wait for the brief ideas that peak through and fade by once in a while.

when design is all consuming it is heaven. a heavenly fire burning off flesh and leaving nothing except thought and creation behind. who needs people to touch or hold if your mind takes over everything? after a certain point, if you haven't figured out how to relate to others then maybe it's just best to stick with what you know and can do well instead. sure there may be lack but it won't be as bad as you think.

the clear horror of realizing your inability to be vulnerable when necessary comes down like a rogue wave - you knew the ocean waters were choppy but this is another level of self awareness, a slap in the face. wake up, some things aren't meant for you.