midnight bike ride home from work

construction work, trash collectors, street sweepers, drunks aplenty, potholes hidden in shadows, flashing lights, contacts blur, neck aching, muscles sore.

been working on the portfolio some more. almost done with the rough draft. sometimes i get so pleased with myself, but then i'm dragged back down because there are also little nagging things where i know there are a few things just not up to par - no consist layout or margins or theme to carry through the book, certain perspectives could have better shading or more detail, the fonts all need to be changed to a lighter shade of grey. these are the things that wake me up at 4am, my mind racing unable to let go of the list of things that need to get done. i've forgotten that when i put my mind to it, i get obsessive to the point of 48 hour work cycles, cramped wrists, tired eyes and aching back. it's different when i'm not in school though - having to sit through an eight hour work day when i could be working on my own stuff is difficult.

when i find a moment for release i've been watching episodes of battlestar galactica. i wasn't expecting the show to be so amazing. now it's an addiction that just won't quit, at least not until i've caught up to season 4. so this is why i'm awake til 2am, because i have to know what happens next.

there hasn't been much else lately for me. i have decided that july and august are months to not spend money as i've dug myself into debt yet again. by not spend money, i really mean it - no going out, no meeting up for drinks, no eating out, eating only what is in the fridge until all of it is gone. it's not very social - and it kind of sucks because that's what this city is all about - but what other solutions are there? the alternatives aren't bad. a pile of books to read, a bike to ride, and a never ending universe through the internet and dvds to keep me company.

i guess i should sleep. i'm so wired i can't begin to calm down. so until i wake up at 4am again, i bid you good night.